so far my 2015 has been....
a huge roller coaster.
i have been dealing with feeling like a major
failure of being a good friend
failure of being a good wife/sister
failure of being able to freaking
(haha funny way to say it but you get it..)
lets break it down:
i have worked very hard since being diagnosed with
to avoid getting depressed / down / sad
about my situation
and its been getting harder & harder to be
the past year i have come to this conclusion:
W E A L L H A V E T R I A L S
(in comparison to everything going on around me)
(most days--- like 75%...ish)
I have decided to turn my focus & intentions on the good in my life :
job (makeup + yoga)
everyone of these listed bring me so much happiness / peace / meaning & focus to my life!
im not a failure,
but i have decided i need to be nicer to myself,
take care of myself
and stop spreading myself SO thin.....
i have a lot going on and for some reason i think that if i
throw myself into someone else's problems or trying to help them (service!?)
that i will feel better!
which i believe IS true!
--but to an extent....
there comes a time when the focus needs to be pulled inward.
this last month my body has PHYSICALLY told me to
( hernia, kidney stones, same ole bum ovaries )
"i read you loud & clear body"
i know that by giving myself some TLC, i will be able to better take care of:
my future babies
i am writing this more to just get it off my chest and explain to everyone
how i have chosen to deal with my trials...
its not easy.
but i'm trying
i hope this makes sense and can help anyone else going through similar issues-
BE KIND TO YOURSELF!